Has getting spanked 100 times as a child affected my personality?

I feel compassion for you, that was what it was, today you have to take control of your life-cannot go on blaming things that happened in the past. It is unfortunate you had to go through that. Read some good articles on self esteem, books from library on self esteem, you can turn things around for yourself. And you sure will feel proud of yourself one day. School counsellor can guide you. Be positive, think positive, behave positive-it will do wonders for you. Think of people who are in much worse situation than you are, learn to appreciate nature.