What do you think of the first chapter of my story?

great idea! interesting beginning and good job alluding to previous events important to your narrator. I think you need to work on grammar and make sure to edit this draft. There are ways of writing to show emotion without using non-sentences like "damn." or "screw them." Look at some of your favorite books and try to emulate their style of writing. Published authors use tools to convey the messages and emotions of their characters without saying outright how they feel. In other words showing instead of telling.